The True Romantic Love

Friday, July 10, 2009
Recently, I heard from a friend of mine that the divorce rate is booming in India, especially in the southern part of the country. In the world of "instant" everything, this has become just a simple issue on the go. Be it a love marriage or an arranged one, it is same. Where then is the 'true Romantic love'?

I happened to meet my uncle recently in my native for a family gathering. His wife (my aunt) passed away last December. They don't have kids too. He is in his late 60s now.As a retired person, he is living all alone, cooking by himself and doing some petty works at home. In the gathering someone asked 'why can't he shift to his relatives' place where he can stay with his brother's family'. I was touched by his answer.His reply was, 'When my wife is here (he meant her cemetry), how can i leave her alone?' he gave an additional info that he has already reserved a place in the cemetry right next to his wife's. What do you call this? Heights of their romantic marital love? Yes it is.

I remember an ironical incident in Bible in Genesis which says "{23:1} And Sarah was an hundred and seven and twenty years old: [these were] the years of the life of Sarah. {23:2}And Sarah died in Kirjath-arba; the same [is] Hebron in the land of Canaan: and Abraham came to mourn for Sarah, and to weep for her".

Abraham weeping the death of his 127 year old wife. His love for his wife was strong as death!

Read somewhere, 'A true Romance must sail over the negative points of the partner'. When these days,its difficut to sail over a small breeze, then how wait for a storm to come :)
 
posted by Feni at 2:58 PM, | 5 comments

MY TOMORROW

Friday, December 12, 2008
I read a wonderful verse from Bible about tomorrow…

” Yet you do not know what your life will be like tomorrow. You are just a vapor that appears for a little while and then vanishes away. Instead, you ought to say, ‘If the Lord wills, we will live and also do this or that.’ But as it is, you boast in your arrogance; all such boasting is evil” (James 4:13-16).

Tomorrow is just a vapour…But still we boast about it…is it not?

I should do a lot preparation for a better tomorrow…and land in a good position in some tomorrow…I should earn money for a better tomorrow…I have to do a lot of savings for the well being of me and my future generation in some tomorrow…And that too if its a girl child it should be useful for the guy who will marry her some tomorrow…

Parents do a lot of planning and preparation so that the children have a better future..some tomorrrow…And don’t know who said..if parents don’t do good deeds, their children will suffer in the future which is some tomorrow.

If I don’t attend the wedding of my friend today..she/he won’t attend mine which will happen some tomorrow…:)

We don’t know what the future holds but still we tend to live for that unknown tomorrow planning for it. Its very right to plan for the tomorrow which gives us hope to live for today. If there is no life for tomorrow we would mostly end up getting confused on what to do for today, and there would be no hope to live the life today. Eventually the hope for tomorrow gives us the life for today but we miss to live the life today busy planning about the future.There are many instances when we forget to live for today while we would get carried away by the thoughts of future. There would be so many things we want to do..but still put off them aside for sometime and get going planning for the future, an unknown tomorrow.

I remember one of my friend always tell its good being good to others , being loved and love everyone. What if we don’t have time today for accomplishing it and postponing it to do it because of the worries about tomorrow. None of us know what tomorrow holds for us but yet we plan for it for thinking to avoid the problems in life of some tomorrow.why did we become so pessimistic completely? Its very easy to talk about things like that and may be you will say why can’t we do what we feel like and say what we want to..but yet there is some kind of a fear of which stops us to do what we think, which eventually stops us to live today.

So just a food for thought…why don’t we think on this note? To do things which we like to do today, putting things of tomorrow aside.

To bring a smile on someone you love today, than postponing it for some occasion and what if you don’t get a chance again?

Have you enjoyed the rain? Why don’t we try it and what if a situation happens that you have 2 kids and you wanna dance and I am sure no one can help the situation :-)

To make someone’s day special, how about writing a note and keeping it on the table of a loved one and enjoy their feeling of happiness..what if you cant do it in some tomorrow?

To eat loads of chocolates today and what if you become a diabetic tomorrow?

We spend lot of money on the siblings and friends in treating them and buying gifts to see the smiles and what of we can't do it some tomorrow?

When an old friend of you wants to meet you today and if you postpone it since you were busy planning for the future and what if you can't meet them that tomorrow?

When we forget to express the love to a dear one while we were deeply carried away by the plans for future..what if may be tomorrow it won't be possible to do it?

You compromise..and that’s called life. Its true. But to live for today there should be no compromises. We are in need of a tomorrow to live today but tomorrow should not be a reason for not living today. The one precious day we have, since yesterday is already dead and we don’t know what tomorrow holds. The one who lives today the fullest will be the blessed one of all the being.

Read somewhere…

"We shall do much in the years to come, but what have we done today?
We shall give our gold in a princely sum, but what did we give today?
We shall lift the heart and dry the tear, We shall plant a hope in the place of fear, We shall speak the words of love and cheer but what did we speak today?
We shall be so kind in the afterwhile, but what have we been today?
We shall bring each lonely life a smile, but what have we brought today?
We shall give to truth a grander birth, And to steadfast faith a deeper worth, We shall feed the hungering souls of earth, but whom have we fed today?
We shall reap such joys in the by and by, but what have we sown today?
We shall build us mansions in the sky, but what have we built today? ‘
Tis sweet in idle dreams to bask, but here and now do we do our task?
Yes, this is the thing our souls must ask, “What have we done today?”
 
posted by Feni at 9:03 AM, | 3 comments

To hold on or let it go!

Tuesday, November 04, 2008
I was wondering!!
What to do with the relation which is no longer mine..
to hold on or let it go?
it is a toughest choice..
to hold on..breaks my heart on and off..
to let it go...will tear me off..

Time passed by..
the relation wasn't fruitful to live with..
realized i am hurting myself
to hold on or let it go?
it is a toughest choice..
to hold on..breaks my heart on and off..
to let it go...will tear me off..

Heaviest is the heart
Deepest is the silence..
when i decided to let it go..
to break the chain that held me glued..

i tried and tried it hard,
and let it go which torn me apart..
Bad is the feeling that i let go..
but worst it became, it didnt affect any when i came to know..

time is the medicine...
finally i chose to let it go..
 
posted by Feni at 4:49 PM, | 3 comments

To myself...

Sunday, February 17, 2008
I am getting into too many thought process these days and the outcome....


*~* I don't care how strong you are, All I want to know is what holds you together when you are at your weakest self...

*~*I don't care how polite you are, All I want to know is the number of situation you were impolite which broke hearts...

*~* I don't care how honest you are, All I want to know is if you are truthful to yourself without believing the lies you say within...

*~* I don't care how intelligent you are, All I want to know is how many times you allowed yourself to look stupid to do something you want to compromise...

*~* I don't care what do you do for your living, All I want to know is the last time you really LIVED and felt ALIVE...

*~* I don't care how deep is your love for others, All I want to know is how far will you go for those whom you loved don't reciprocate it ...

*~* I don't care how good is your smile,All I want to know is how well are you spreading it around...

*~* I don't care how old you are, All I want is to know if the child in you is still alive, the purest and not touched by life's imperfections...

*~* I don't care how successful you are, All I want to know is if the fire to achieve something is still burning in you...

*~* I don't care how well you can create sympathy in other's eyes, All I want to know is how well you manage your situation and come out of it by God's help...

*~* I don't care how many enjoy your company, All I want to know is how well you like being yourself calm and quiet...

*~* I don't care how good you are to the outside world, All I want to know is the realization of yourself inside when you remove that mask...

*~* I don't care how many friends you have, All I want to know is how do you enjoy solitude when you are left alone...

*~* I don't care how beautiful you are, All I want to know is how the ugly side of you, how is it being loved...

Above all...

I don't really care what you are today in others eyes, All I want to know is who are you in God's eyes right away!!!
 
posted by Feni at 9:21 AM, | 8 comments

I wonder how! I wonder why!

Tuesday, September 25, 2007
Its long time since I logged in blogger..Its not that I am too busy but pretty lazy:))

*Yesterday* During my childhood days, I always had the attitude of living being unnoticed.That was growing in my mind and later i came to know that i became so timid to move with people. But God was so merciful to me that He provided with people who understood me as I am and helped myself to speak out.These Childhood memories are always remembered and I should be really thankful for those friends who really stood with me.While I was in class V i guess, there used to be long queues to meet the teacher and get our notebooks signed. We used to run from our sitting place just to reserve seats in the queue. It was really easy for few of my fellow class mates to get a seat in the queue if i am already there standing. They will right away push me aside and chuck me to the end of the queue for no reason and take up my place.Desperate me ,I would always be quiet and sometimes used to throw myself out of the queue seeing them coming.And this friend of mine "Nissi", somehow glued to me became my consoling partner.After the short while of our friendhip blossom she never gave a chance for people who push me away from queues but used to push them aside and get me a place in the queue.What a friend!hehe

But I was not able to continue my 'keep mum' behaviour so long..While in college,the change in me was drastic...from 1st year to the final year ...The 'scared one' to the 'cared one' and sometimes 'a dont careone';-)...i remember one of my friends even today pulls my legs reminding this..Thanks to college days..I was carefreee and t'was all fun and fun only...

*Today* But came for work into Corporate, the learning is much more...and that too to Bangalore...there used to be the beginning days at work..stood in awe seeing all the mini skirts and the colored hair, and get confused and turned back to find a person if he is a male or a female...Many said this is the culture and 'yo man its fashion everywhere!' and I'd got weird looks from people for the honest reply that 'I dont have a boy friend'..Oh its a mistake or wat!!! Again the change.. that was not drastic though'..All I learnt is Corporate world is not really satisfactory which we cant expect it to be anytime..Except for putting weight eating all junkies..gossiping around..saying a formal 'sorry' and 'thanks' for anything and everything..calling someone who is of our father's age by name..culture!!I would think sometimes what will happen if I try that with my dad! hehe..And all the more cribbing about projects, saying a 'hi' to a person next to you in a mail ..sometimes it looks funny to think about this,but its just this which I need to accept..I was telling one of my friends sometime bak 'why should not I resign the job, go back home and take classes for Kindergarten kids?wont that be really satisfactory and I could understand what real joy is!' When discussed the same with my mom, the reply was 'B.Tech is over qualification for KG teachers and your application will be obviously rejected'..hmmm..I remember this 'Leisure' poem by William Davies studied during school days. It goes like this..

" What is this life if, full of care,We have no time to stand and stare"

But thanks to Bangalore, I got many new friends and most of all I could understand how necessary is to lean on God for everything and anything especially when you are away from home..

*Tomorrow* The future? Dont know how it is gonna be..I am not worried too..sometimes will lose spirits..but God is in control..:)

btw,any KG school admitting me??ahem!! ;-)

 
posted by Feni at 12:21 PM, | 4 comments

Do you love me?

Thursday, May 10, 2007



A thought while reading the scripture...




John 21:15 to 17 (KJV)

"{21:15} So when they had dined, Jesus saith to Simon Peter, Simon, [son] of Jonas, lovest thou Me more than these? He saith unto him, Yea, Lord; thou knowest that I love thee. He saith unto him, Feed my lambs. {21:16} He saith to him again the second time, Simon, [son] of Jonas, lovest thou me? He saith unto him, Yea, Lord; thou knowest that I love thee. He saith unto him, Feed my sheep. {21:17} He saith unto him the third time, Simon, [son] of Jonas, lovest thou me? Peter was grieved because he said unto him the third time, Lovest thou me? And he said unto him, Lord, thou knowest all things; thou knowest that I love thee. Jesus saith unto him, Feed my sheep".

Something clicked on reading the above passage. Which place am I giving the Lord? Am I loving Him more than everything else? Am I giving room to something else ? What takes His place? My family? My Friends? My Work? My mobile? My MP3 ?My books?wat else on earth? Am I walking with Him?Am I holding His hands always in the walk of my life?

God insists on loving Him more than anything else..yeah anything else.. Nothing can't /should take His place.

Peace:)
 
posted by Feni at 12:24 PM, | 8 comments

A lil' crap..

Tuesday, March 27, 2007
I woke up today morning by the sms tone and the vibration of my mobile..it was little difficult to find the mobile under the pillow..and finally when i got it , there was a good morning message from my sis addressing me as 'fenii panni *so rhyming huh?* get up, good morning'.. This is one of the very few times she uses my own name..usually i bear the names of those faithful, or dumb 5 sense creatures on earth.. i I love it no matter what animal name she gives me;-)

For those who doesn't know where feni emerged from, it is from 'Fenella', my full name...There were times when I used to dislike my name especially when my maths teacher at school used to call me 'Benela'..She used to get on my nerves often when everyone else in the class grinning at me..

And i hate when ammichi (Grandma) used to call me 'funnela' (funnel??)..I used to tell her to call me 'feni' but she never listened to it since she prefered the Baptism name it seems..My nephew 9 years old calls me 'fenikuttypapa' sometimes,feni vanishes in that..If i try changing or threatening him not to tell, he will name me with still more "beautiful" names...And, I get scared when mom calls me by name, cos she does it only when she is angry on me or something like that sort..At office, needless to say few poeple prefer their own way of pronouncing my name..One colleague at office calls me 'Fanla'...Hearing him few of the other guys around started to tease me 'Fan'la, 'light'la,'AC'la etc.,

This reminds me of another incident. It was during a team treat in a restaurant when we were about to finish the lunch. People were ordering icecreams and desserts. I ordered for a Vanilla icecream. After some time when they served it, my manager suddenly turned at the guy sitting next to me yelling, 'Hey vanilla is for vanila..not for you'.. No one had any clue on what he was talking.. Then he pointed at me telling its for me and he took it by mistake..The crowd had a good laugh.. The best part is he never corrects it..not intentionally though..I too didn't give a try..:)

I used to introduce myself in places where I had to,like, in meetings and trainings only when there is no noise and people could hear me clearly..but anyways they are gonna ask me for a "Come again pls..". 'Feni' sounds easy i guess for this matter..and more than 70% of poeple I know calls/made to call me 'Feni'.The remaining strength end up giving me creative names :)

The bottom line is I believe that my name is special and unique, cos its a part of me. But more than the name, it is the people that mean a lot more, and when all the people who are close to heart call me by different/weird names, I don't mind a bit:))

*Just a crap...* hehe
 
posted by Feni at 11:51 AM, | 12 comments